Wednesday, April 4, 2012
worth it
a sweet friend sent me this today...I am worth protecting and that is something that I have a hard time believing sometimes but it really is true. My friends are wonderful and they surround me and protect me and help me to feel God's love in a tangible way. I am so blessed.
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
more Gratitude
25. cell phones
26. cherry coke zero
27. nalgenes
28. fun people to work with
29. slow days in the day hospital
30. busy days in the day hospital
31. a job that I love
32. french braids
33. pinterest
34. ice
35. that I'm allowed to wear t-shirts to work
36. prayer
37. text messages from new friends
38. Haley
39. walks in the beautiful weather
40. fresh fruit
41. blogs
42. mint.com
that's all for now..
Monday, March 12, 2012
Gratitude
I'm starting over because it's been so long that I can't remember what number I'm on...
1. lazy days
2. fresh fruit
3. a godly man who, for some reason, likes spending time with me
4. and isn't afraid of my mess
5. cell phones
6. text messages
7. hands that know how to hold
8. words even when they're confusing
9. blankets
10. family, even when they aren't related by blood
11. time to sleep
12. my friends who are loving people all over the world
13. the promise that God knows what's next
14. the process
15. long walks in beautiful weather with a friend I love
16. a smile worth like a billion dollars
17. books
18. encouraging birthday cards from far away friends
19. hugs
20. choices
21. salvation that isn't based on my merit but on the blood of my Savior
22. fresh flowers
23. beauty
24. forgiveness
1. lazy days
2. fresh fruit
3. a godly man who, for some reason, likes spending time with me
4. and isn't afraid of my mess
5. cell phones
6. text messages
7. hands that know how to hold
8. words even when they're confusing
9. blankets
10. family, even when they aren't related by blood
11. time to sleep
12. my friends who are loving people all over the world
13. the promise that God knows what's next
14. the process
15. long walks in beautiful weather with a friend I love
16. a smile worth like a billion dollars
17. books
18. encouraging birthday cards from far away friends
19. hugs
20. choices
21. salvation that isn't based on my merit but on the blood of my Savior
22. fresh flowers
23. beauty
24. forgiveness
Thursday, August 18, 2011
a story worth telling
I love words. It's a love that began early and one that is rooted deep. no matter what I do, I always come back to my love for words. I'm a writer. and I hesitate to say that because I'm not sure that what I write is worth anything to anyone but me, but I'm working on figuring out who I am and I think writing plays a significant role in my story.
I've been reading this book. It's called To Be Told by Dan Allender. I've read Allender before and loved him. He speaks my heart language. but this book is different than any others I've read. It's a book about story. It's about reading your story, tracing themes that God has woven through your life, literally writing your story on paper, telling your story, allowing others to join in and edit your story, and joining God in writing the rest of your story. That being said, there is so much that I want to share about this book but I have a LOT of processing to do before I can even think about it myself, much less share it. and let's be honest, I have a lot of writing to do!
I read some of it tonight and I only have one chapter left but I have already started going back to the beginning and slowly going through each chapter, processing the ideas and attempting to write parts of my own story on paper. It's hard and substantially painful to put the words on paper. Something about putting it on paper makes it more real and forces me to acknowledge and feel the things I felt. "There is something about seeing your hurts and struggles in black and white that focuses the heart rather than allowing it to turn and flee. We are more naked and needy before words that we write than perhaps anywhere else." (p.129) but I'm still the only one who reads my journal. The real work comes when I share it with someone else. It's gonna be a long time before that can even begin to happen. Hopefully God will give me the courage to do that one day.
there are so many quotes that I could share on here but this is one that really struck me tonight:
"He builds burdens in us through our own experience of being orphaned, exiled, and widowed. And then he uses those losses to deepen our war with him which, of course, he wins again and again as we surrender to his goodness. In turn, he sends us to live out our burdens with those who need us but who, in the long run, end up bringing us more that we could ever offer them." (p.177)
more to come..
I've been reading this book. It's called To Be Told by Dan Allender. I've read Allender before and loved him. He speaks my heart language. but this book is different than any others I've read. It's a book about story. It's about reading your story, tracing themes that God has woven through your life, literally writing your story on paper, telling your story, allowing others to join in and edit your story, and joining God in writing the rest of your story. That being said, there is so much that I want to share about this book but I have a LOT of processing to do before I can even think about it myself, much less share it. and let's be honest, I have a lot of writing to do!
I read some of it tonight and I only have one chapter left but I have already started going back to the beginning and slowly going through each chapter, processing the ideas and attempting to write parts of my own story on paper. It's hard and substantially painful to put the words on paper. Something about putting it on paper makes it more real and forces me to acknowledge and feel the things I felt. "There is something about seeing your hurts and struggles in black and white that focuses the heart rather than allowing it to turn and flee. We are more naked and needy before words that we write than perhaps anywhere else." (p.129) but I'm still the only one who reads my journal. The real work comes when I share it with someone else. It's gonna be a long time before that can even begin to happen. Hopefully God will give me the courage to do that one day.
there are so many quotes that I could share on here but this is one that really struck me tonight:
"He builds burdens in us through our own experience of being orphaned, exiled, and widowed. And then he uses those losses to deepen our war with him which, of course, he wins again and again as we surrender to his goodness. In turn, he sends us to live out our burdens with those who need us but who, in the long run, end up bringing us more that we could ever offer them." (p.177)
more to come..
Sunday, July 3, 2011
the day when I will finally be free
I don’t know how to follow you without losing my way
Jesus come and take me by the hand
I don’t know how to trust that you will do the things you say
Spirit teach me how to understand
That your love can heal the wreckage of my soul
The beauty of your light shining in me
I don’t know when you’ll take me home to paradise with you
The day when I will finally be free
Oh the day when you come back for me
-JJ Heller
this song puts words to how my heart feels right now.
I'm weary and desperate for Jesus to heal what feels like wreckage in my soul.
and I am waiting, waiting, waiting for freedom.
I don't know how to trust and rest in Jesus yet I want to so badly.
and I'm longing for home in the face-to-face presence of Jesus,
more than ever aware that here will never be enough.
Jesus come and take me by the hand
I don’t know how to trust that you will do the things you say
Spirit teach me how to understand
That your love can heal the wreckage of my soul
The beauty of your light shining in me
I don’t know when you’ll take me home to paradise with you
The day when I will finally be free
Oh the day when you come back for me
-JJ Heller
this song puts words to how my heart feels right now.
I'm weary and desperate for Jesus to heal what feels like wreckage in my soul.
and I am waiting, waiting, waiting for freedom.
I don't know how to trust and rest in Jesus yet I want to so badly.
and I'm longing for home in the face-to-face presence of Jesus,
more than ever aware that here will never be enough.
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