at the beach

so, I've been challenged inadvertently by a new friend to blog way more often than I do. By reading my blog, you'd have no idea how much I actually love to express myself in words and share my life with people. maybe I prefer to do it face-to-face but with the amount of time I spend on the computer, I should be at least doing something that I know is therapeutic and helpful rather than wasteful.

Right now, I'm at the beach with my pseudo-family..aka my best friend's family that has adopted me into theirs and lets me come on the family beach trip every year :) it's wonderful..and such a blessing to be known and loved by them. Shan asked me this morning if I was relaxed yet and I just couldn't answer honestly with a yes..I'm getting there but there's just so much on my mind and on my heart that I haven't gotten to process over the past month of working, hanging out, and just plain being busy..Don't get me wrong, I love my life, sometimes I just forget that I still need a break every once in a while..usually I don't realize that I need one until someone forces me to take one and then I'm overwhelmed with a sense of how much I needed it.

So far on this trip, I've been overwhelmed by the Lord's love for me. I've gotten sweet time with Jesus to just be near Him and think about His truth and beg Him to allow it to transform and affect me to the core of who I am...I've been listening to Mark Driscoll who never fails to challenge me and encourage me and help me know more of Jesus...He has a series on Proverbs and it's awesome so far..In the second sermon, he talks about pursuing out deepest desires rather than being so easily satisfied by things that aren't really what we want in our hearts..He quotes C.S. Lewis (a favorite) when he talks about our desires being far too small, we are far too easily pleased..when I think about the things that I ask and expect of the Lord, I am ashamed often of the lack of faith that I have in Him to do mighty things that I can't even imagine..I want to learn to ask for BIG things and expect Him to blow me away!

I have more thoughts but we're headed to dinner so I'm taking a break..